"So I never felt her absence."
In rainy weather the streets turned to red slop, grass grew on sidewalks. The life too busy. My stiff collors wilted by nine in the morning. Thats what life demands. A day was 24hours long but seemed much longer. Hurry hours, for there was no where to go. "Jeena Yehaan, Marna Yehaan iske siwa jaana kahaa!!" Sung this song n-number of times.
Nothing to buy, nothing to see outside the boundaries. Nothing to fear, but fear itself. Enjoying life secretly, without even letting life know about it. The most revolutionary act one can commit - To be happy. Yes I'm happy, though I miss lot which life knowingly kept hiding. Life said 'Mutual feelings'
Home, Occasionally. Friends, Never. Coffee, Being a life saver, no way. School/college, thats my own nostalgia. Love, I love 'milkmaid'. Travel, I know good travelers are not planners. Alas, nothing of this sort is a miss to me.
I keep denying the truth that I don't know that what is it that gnaws at me all time.
Searched. Explored. Checked. Didn't find. Failed.
Out of the blue, in a dream the other night, I found out. Yes it was You.
Along the road of truth "I miss her absence." Realized, you are the meanest and loveliest person God has ever blown air into.
Yes, You... Complete me, and I miss You.