Thursday, July 9

Whom the Gods love, die young!!!


"Please, can you tell his story?" She yelled.

He..., I met him first, some two years back in a train journey.

"Hello, what's with the black? You look like you're goin' to a funeral! " With no introduction this is how he started with me.

I never knew that, this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship. He's the kind of man who's got the sun in his eye when he laughs... The energy he transfers to the people around him is tremendous.

He never looked an Indian to me. Every thing was different in his case. His accent, his mannerisms, his thoughts, nothing resembled me of an Indian.

"What is your nationality?" I asked.

He answered "I'm a drunkard..., that makes me a citizen of the world"

That's the way he talks. Some may say he is the shah of blah blah.., but for me he is a scholar, a philosopher, a terrific teacher and of all the above, a brother.

Of the many fortunes & surprises I had in my lff, this was my greatest pleasure that he lived very close to my flat. We often go for long walks, me listening to his wonderfully crafted words and cheering him to talk more. I love to listen whatever he utters. That special he was to me. He talks a lot - lff, people, religion, country, children, poor, but strange not LOVE!

"Who is the girl in yo' mind?" Once I asked.
I was that sure, that he was/is in love. Don't ask me why!!

"Ask me, When you get there! " He replied back.
Hmmh! Diplomatist! I thought.

That night I couldn't sleep. 'When you get there, ask me!' that's what he said. I feared. Should I tell him?, I am already there, only but standing as a loser!!. Fear and wonder, powerful combination.
I came to this part of world to forget my past. But now I am thinking of reopening the junk files of my lff again!! Finally, I made up my mind. I will!

He was there in usual kick off place the next day. Unusually he was carrying a guitar.
We went to the near by garden. Silence over ruled our conversation, for the first time.
We sat in the shadow. He smiled, started playing a song in his guitar.


"You must remember this
,
A kiss is still a kiss;
A sigh is just a sigh;
The fundamental things apply as time goes by;

And when two lovers woo,
They still say, "I love you";
On that you can rely;
No matter what the future brings-...."

"You loved her deep, right?" he asked me, in btw.

"Yes!!!"

"You still love her?" He was still playing guitar.

"Yes!!! I didn't find any reason to hate, so I love!"

"You know an old saying -'One shouldn't sought glory as a lover... but cherish the moments that lasts a lifetime...' " he smiled & continued;
" I too had a love. I lost, or rather she died away from my lff. I too stopped living. For a while. That's easy: I'm dead." *pause* "And this is tuff: to live again. I started living again. When she was around, my love was only SHE. But today I started loving - these trees, flowers, skies, birds, and moreover I started loving myself!!" *Sigh!!* "So understand, as P Davis said - lff is just a chance to grow a soul..." He stood up and walked, I followed.

"The amount of positive energy I got in that conversation was immense. Even today I feel it..."

It was the hardest thing in my lff to say good-bye to him and move to another place. It was great pain,but as lff demands, one has to.

And today this is unfortunate and unexpected, as I screamed having a glance at today's newspaper.

"Even in those death columns, you keep your presence known" I wept.

I never knew which part of the world he lived after my departure.

I remember last time when he called me over, VoIP;

I asked "Where were you last night???"

"That's so long ago, I don't remember." I wasn't surprised with that answer.

Then I asked him with a laugh- "Where will you be tonight??"

His answer was even interesting- "I never make plans that lies far ahead!!"

That's how endings should be. No remnants!!

Thursday, July 2

Lff...


"I watched from distance"

The rising sun in mighty mountains...
The setting sun as it dissolves in ocean...,
A castle in spider web;
Rejuvenation in pouring rain!!
All fine!! Sweet and Beautiful...


"I gazed closer"
The rising sun; the cause of all slip-ups..,
The setting sun; end of all virtues..,
Grievance of trapped prey;
Howl of the dispossessed in the rain!
Awful!! Appalling and Dire...


"I finish"
Shorter the Distance.
Lesser the Sweetness.
More the Sharpness.

"Aghhh..., Lff... & Its Existence...!!!"

Sunday, June 21

Friday, June 12

Casanovva


I met her after two days. A very quixotic evening with beautiful flowers, small small butterflies & sparrows flying all around. I still remember she had that extra touch to keep her lawn 'the best'. Btw our talking I asked...

" Where is that flower?"

"Flower???" *bolt from the blue*

" That red rose I gave ? "

"aahh..thatt.....!! " *smile* *shy*

"What you did with that?"

"Why? Why are you asking?"

"To know, whether you have stamped it out or not?"

"What if, I stamp out a Rose?" *impish*

"ohh nothing...!! I gave away my heart to you in that...!!"

I never knew those words I mouthed had so much philia on her. It triggered a feeling of euphoria. From rank to rank she darts her ardent eyes. She pulled me inside... It was the dusk of autumn...

Our clumsy fingers, fumbled along with the zipper sounds & barricades of buttons and hooks.... The vigarous deduct of our clothes and jostling them aside...

The scattered clothes all around, a testimonial to the love we made...


Wednesday, May 27

silhouette

I noticed her eyes sparkled every time I called her by name. I felt she dressed carefully hoping I would notice. She was getting that extra care from her friends 'coz of me. She kept looking my eyes, every time I spoke. She always kept her silence when our gang blasting, but with a killing smile. She appears to be more polite while talking to me. She always laughed on my bad jokes(probabily the only one who laughs). She volunteered first, teaching me lessons during exams & never forgets a thumbs-up before entering the exam hall (many went unnoticed by me - says my friends). Lunch hours - she always asked me about my friends, my family & my social life, I never asked about her's!. She was first to assist our gang in what we called the break-dance, but with her 'bharatanattyam' steps. Her best friend, gave me a friendship card, signed "Her's- Best friend" '??'. I still dont know why she didn't give me one? I don't know why she carved my name on that desk where she sits!!??

But I never complained. She was indeed sweet. 

My only complaint - "Why you left unsaid, you loved me!!?"


Wednesday, May 13

remember TO forget!!??


I have the greatest virtue and liberty to say, I own one of the most celebrated and colourful friendship days that the humankind have ever seen.

Very recently someone asked me; how you define friendship? I raised my eyebrow, shrug in anguish! I realised don't know how to define, or I cannot define!

Then he/she asked; have you seen any difference between the friendship of a guy and a gal!?
...and this post is the answer:

"I have seen, and seeing friendship of Girls and Guys. I firmly believe Bois mean friends when they say friends. They never call every day, but are there every time you called.
They wouldn't know what exactly the reason, when you wear a particular dress, neither remembers your birthday nor keep time. But they'd never see the dark clouds around your eyes.

Girls, yes they have friends... countless!!. Have you ever asked a girl about her friendship? She may gush; pour out suddenly and profusely with lot of emotions, sentiments & enthusiasm.

They may tell you about the friendship cards or bands that are exchanged, but they forget the voices that once held over the phone calls or words that once console a broken heart.

Moreover, it’s all over once Marriage is over; if anything was there!

Girls expect more, or in other words...friendship for a girl means getting what they expect!

However, for a guy a cup of hot tea over a shared cigarette is treasure."

That 'someone' stood stunned, so as me, as 'my sister' signed off saying:

"Women remember to forget --- Men forget to remember"


It was she who answered that question, which was actually thrown at me...

I remember once I said:

"I wish I were a Girl", seeing my sis makes-up before mirror for a party,

She replied pinching my cheeks with her both hands,

"I wish I were a Boy!!"

May be this is why she said so!!!?? *Sigh!!*